I've finally gotten over my most painful semester.
Yesterday was my last paper and though it wasn't an easy parting, I was done.
Also, Im offically 22 years old!
Turned 22 last Thursday and well, I spent it just like any day.
I spent my day in the office, catching up and clearing stuff at work,
then studying on my way home, only to be so exhausted to the point I couldn't move.
Honestly speaking, I really wanted to pop open some cans of beer and eat good food but I was exhausted to beyond means and furthermore I had to wake up the next day to study. As for good food, cuz my dad was not at home by the time I got home, my mom just cooked me instant noodles. But hey, I was craving for them so I ain't complaining.
My parents didn't specifically celebrate this year as well. However, I could tell that they felt really guilty for not being able to get me anything, but seriously, I dont need anything.
I have a home, two loving, hardworking parents who brought me up till today. What more do I need?
(Plus my mom already told me since I was young that she was gonna take care of me until I turn 21...but she still makes noise whenever I say I want to travel/go somewhere...hmm)
So rather then opening a beer and just having fun, I got home, laid in bed and just watched k-pop videos. That was when I realised, I'm really thankful for discovering K-pop.
I remember really hating and going "k-pop?! PFFFFTTTT" when it first became a boom when I was in Sec 3. Well...look at me now. 7 years later, when most of my friends have given up following k-pop and having fun in the real world, I'm still lying in bed laughing and watching 13 boys whom are all younger then me trying to survive in a village.
But yeah, the exam period really took a toll on me. I was soooo tempted to go and hang out with my friends and just have fun. But I kept these feelings in check and spent my days in the library, trying to remember over 12 weeks of content in a week. (and for what. I couldn't even answer my essay question for my paper yesterday..omfg. My psych paper was alright but the media paper was just....heartbreaking).
However, I officially burned out 2 days before my first paper. I didn't want to eat, I just felt really tired and my body ached everywhere. I also didn't want to leave my bed. I kept thinking that if I just lied there, the world will forget me. Then, my secondary school friend saved me and messaged if I wanted to have lunch. So I did because I knew either way, if it wasn't for my friend, I wouldn't have moved at all that day. So I went to lunch and eventually also went out to watch suicide squad. After that, I felt a tad bit better so I revised about 1-2 chapters before I knocked out until the next morning,
I guess I just felt really tired and exhausted by everything because my body just couldn't keep up with what I really wanted to do. I needed to work, to study but I also wanted to be with my friends so so much. I just wanted to hang out with them before they get caught up and busy with their lives but it wasn't at the right time. Also, I think my last school holiday had to do with this tiredness that I felt. My last holiday was just 2 weeks long and before I knew it, it was back to school to the two most rigid modules I ever taken in uni.Then time passed so fast that assignment month came and exams happened.
Now that I'm done for the semesters, I kinda wanted to go out and have fun, to . However, I realised now my friends are pretty much all busy. Actually, I'm not sure if they are busy, i just think that they have their own lives and I feel like I'm stepping invisible boundaries if I kept asking them out.
So, today after i'm done here at work, though I really wanted to go out and celebrate the end of what was the most painful and hardest semester, I'm probably gonna head home back to my k-pop videos.
Anyways, so thats what's been happening to me~
It's a blog so I can write about myself right? Haha.But yeah I should write more productive things rather then just posts of "hi, i am still allive"
SO! that is why i created a dayre account! A friend of mine uses it and talked to me about it a looooooooongggg time ago and I saw her snapchat like a few weeks ago of her posting on dayre and realised oh yeah, maybe this is the place where I can write posts of "hi i'm still here".
So yeah! If you want to know how I feel about life and the occasional "i'm still around" posts, follow me at https://dayre.me/mltz94 !
With that, I shall close this post.
Cheers!
But yeah, the exam period really took a toll on me. I was soooo tempted to go and hang out with my friends and just have fun. But I kept these feelings in check and spent my days in the library, trying to remember over 12 weeks of content in a week. (and for what. I couldn't even answer my essay question for my paper yesterday..omfg. My psych paper was alright but the media paper was just....heartbreaking).
However, I officially burned out 2 days before my first paper. I didn't want to eat, I just felt really tired and my body ached everywhere. I also didn't want to leave my bed. I kept thinking that if I just lied there, the world will forget me. Then, my secondary school friend saved me and messaged if I wanted to have lunch. So I did because I knew either way, if it wasn't for my friend, I wouldn't have moved at all that day. So I went to lunch and eventually also went out to watch suicide squad. After that, I felt a tad bit better so I revised about 1-2 chapters before I knocked out until the next morning,
I guess I just felt really tired and exhausted by everything because my body just couldn't keep up with what I really wanted to do. I needed to work, to study but I also wanted to be with my friends so so much. I just wanted to hang out with them before they get caught up and busy with their lives but it wasn't at the right time. Also, I think my last school holiday had to do with this tiredness that I felt. My last holiday was just 2 weeks long and before I knew it, it was back to school to the two most rigid modules I ever taken in uni.Then time passed so fast that assignment month came and exams happened.
Now that I'm done for the semesters, I kinda wanted to go out and have fun, to . However, I realised now my friends are pretty much all busy. Actually, I'm not sure if they are busy, i just think that they have their own lives and I feel like I'm stepping invisible boundaries if I kept asking them out.
So, today after i'm done here at work, though I really wanted to go out and celebrate the end of what was the most painful and hardest semester, I'm probably gonna head home back to my k-pop videos.
Anyways, so thats what's been happening to me~
It's a blog so I can write about myself right? Haha.But yeah I should write more productive things rather then just posts of "hi, i am still allive"
SO! that is why i created a dayre account! A friend of mine uses it and talked to me about it a looooooooongggg time ago and I saw her snapchat like a few weeks ago of her posting on dayre and realised oh yeah, maybe this is the place where I can write posts of "hi i'm still here".
So yeah! If you want to know how I feel about life and the occasional "i'm still around" posts, follow me at https://dayre.me/mltz94 !
With that, I shall close this post.
Cheers!
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