MOZSTER'S WORDS

                        

"I try not to think

About the pain I feel inside

Did you know you used to be my hero?

All the days you spent with me

Now seem so far away

And it feels like you don't care any more

And now I try hard to make it

I just want to make you proud

I'm never gonna be good enough for you 

I can't stand another fight

And nothing's all right

'Cause we lost it all

And nothin' lasts forever

I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Now it's just too late

And we can't go back

I'm sorry I can't be perfect"

  Why is the only question I can ask myself.
Why did god put me with these two people when all they do is blame me for everything.
If there is even a God I can believe in and I meet him,
I would love to ask him what were the conditions when I was brought to this world.

Am I just being a child that is narrow-minded that only sees the cons of this family?
But no matter how many times I go over and over
all I can see cons.

I get blamed for the way I speak, the things I do.
I'm basically restricted and am scared to rebel against them because that is how I was brought up.

I just wonder when can I breathe some air and not worry.
Not worry that my words would hurt any of them.

I just wish one day they could see that I, inside am breaking down badly too.